l e x x i ' s * blurty entries

Fri, 13 May 2005 12:14:46 GMT

i'm really not in the mood to write anythin. its too early and i;m fucking tired ok well. i broke up with aj on tuesday. and i have to say it sucks. i'm not gonna go into details about why or anything. but it just really sucks. good thing i have chris . iuno what i'd do without him. sence non of my other friends seem to give a shit. but hey. whattteverrr. i mis him though. =(..i'll have to update when i get home.. i'm gonna be late.

i'm single!! <||3

and i;m going to chris' this weekend =)

Mon, 09 May 2005 01:19:34 GMT

its been like 4235375847548 months sence i've written in this thing <33. so i'll just start off with friday.

okay. well. friday uhm i got my interum. and it sucked. i was grounded. but then my dad said i wasnt. so =). but, he also said that if i dont bring all of my grades up by this coming friday, that i would be grounded until end of the year report cards come out. so that sucks. BUT! ..me and juli went to mbp..on the way there..i spilt grape soda all over my fucking pants. lmao.but it was alot of fun. i saw karlena and my heart like stopped. and i was being shy. lol..then everyone was being silly. and they were throwing eachother. and andrew gave me a ring =) he said he got me something for being sick. and i was like " is it a cough drop" ahah and then he pulled out a ring. lol.karlena was all mad. but thats kay.i wuv em. then i was sitting down and kyle layed on me and i was playing with his hair for like. 15 minutes. and they tried to get me to smell his shoe.lol..and thenn i gave him a piggy back ride. and i dropped him and he wouldnt talk to me for like ever. =( but then he kinda did. lol. uhmm..me juli karlena and aj went outside. and me and karlena smooched. =)))) <33. and then me and juli waited 238294839 minutes until my mom came. and then we took andrew and kyle home. then we went to my house. and weeee got online i think? yeah. we did. and chris called. and hes so sweet =) we went to sleep around 2:30..i woke up at 9. cuz i was coughing. and i came and got online..and i was talkn to someone but i forgot.hehe but uhm..me and julie got ready..and ate donuts. and then went to my game. yeah .juli shut up. <33 haha we won 4-2. but i got nailed in the face extremely hard and juli was on the side lines laughing at me. thanx. your a doll =0.. but hmm.we came home.cleaned my room..juli shaved her legs. i started some laundry. and then i took a showerr. and was hoping chris was coming down with justin. but not this time..but i got ready..then called justin..and told him to come over..then told karl and aj to come over..soo me and juli walked to her house to wait for justin cuz he didnt know where i lived..and then he called and we went outside to wait..and i had to antitum(sp???) yeah. i looked like a tard. but justin had this golf knife and he was talking about putting holes in people with it. lol. but we walked on the train tracks up to yums..to get karl and aj but they werent there..so we went into the pet store..and saw nasty hairy legged spiders. YUCK! but then karl and aj came. and we walked back. and i have to finish this entry tomarrow cuz i need to go take a shower and get ready for bed. <33

goodnight everyone =)

Fri, 01 Apr 2005 19:54:24 GMT

hmm..lets seee...i was supposed to go to justins house..and hang out. and then go to mbp with him and hang out. butttt...his mom said he couldnt go anywhere cuz of his cuncussion ..so yeah. she said i could come over..but idk. thats okay=] i get to hang out withi him in 2 weeks. <33 so thats cool. but yeah. i think the plans for tonight are go to mbp..meet up with brian..and just hang out. i have no idea. i wish i could have seen aj today. makes mee saddddd. =[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[. ughgghg. i;m thirsty;

Thu, 31 Mar 2005 22:58:10 GMT

tuesday..my lover came over at like 8am. and i had so much fun with him. ughghgh .i love him so much =] we just hung out..watched tv..wrestled..kissed..cuddles..ate. blah blah blahhhh. i missed that . but he went home around..5:30..or something..and then i went to practice. the only part i liked about it was it was muddy. other than that..our team sucks and i dont wanna play on that team. yeah. so i came home took a shower..all of this crap..and yeeah. then yesterday..i woke up..took a shower..got ready cleaned my room and then annie came over. we hung out for awhile..cooked some foood and then..uhm. got online...blah blah. i played my guitar for her =] and she tried to play..but she sucked. HA HA! lol..and then i did her hair and make-up. she looked puurrttyy. we chilld more..and then megan came over..we all went on a walk..came back..hung out..annie left..we ate dinner.then went to the carnival. it was alot of fun. me and megan rode the zipper 4 times..and the space ship 2 times. and the little i dont know what its caleld but we got squished..we rode that 3 times..we went in both funhouses..and we walked around and emt up with brian and uh huh . after the last time we went on the spaceship mannnnn i was like blahh all feeln sick. lol..and it was 11:00 or so and everything was closing up..so we called my mom..and we were sittn on the bench waiting and a guy from one of the games was like " how about you ladies over there? wanna give it a try?" and i was shaking my head. and he was like well why not? and i was trying to tell him i didnt have any money..but he was like " i cant hear you, cant hear you" so i walked over there and i was like i dont have any money. he was like awe. that sucks. and i was like yeahhh..just standing there..and he was like how old are you? and i was like uhm..13. and his mouth dropped. and i was like what? he was like..no comment. nd he started laughing. so he was hitting on me majorly. haha. then my mom came..and we went to mcdonalds..which wasnt a good idea..cuz i felt sick anyways..so i got home..put on my pjs..called my babe=] ahh i wuv himmmm.. and then me and megan started watching napolien dynamite..and i fell asleep. yeah. then i woke up at 4..cuz i dont remember..then my mom woke me up and told me to go in my bed..so i did..and i left megan out on the couch. haha. then she came in and fell asleep too. and then aj called and woke me up. and we talked for a long time =] i was laughing a lot <33and then me and megan went out and cooked pizza..and watched the rest of our movie..and then she left at like 2:30. i had practice tonight at 5:30..but i was supposed to go over justins to hang out..but no. i think i might go over when he gets home from dinner. or he might come over here. i forget. and then we;re hanging out tomarrow =] hehe. and brian. and everyone else. yayayayayaya. hehe.

well tootles kids

i need you now, more then i ever did.. i'll hand myself over for you .. < |3

.. we don't need to be this way, this isn't what love is

you said you'd always love me , so far im beliveing in you .. but what is left of this?

my throat hurts =[

Tue, 29 Mar 2005 01:21:36 GMT

my EllJay phobia is returning to meeee =[ hmm..i posted lasttt wednesday. lets see what i can remember....

lets see. thursday..all i remember is it was the last day of school before srping break. and me and zannie talked alot at school ..oh oh..and we had that thomas stone field trip..and it was fun. me and colleen signed up for soccer.and me zannie and colleen signed up for field hockey, wrestling,and cheerleading. and sammy signed up for cheerleading with us. anddd me and colleen signed up for chorus. cuz they gave out free water bottles =]. i saw alot of ppl i knew walkn around the halls. i had funnnn =] yeah. i dont know what i did when i came home. but friday..i went shopping for julis partyy with her and her mom. it was lets sayy...interesting? haha and then me and juli went ice skating..and met up with brian and dan. me and juli played in the game room alot. and walked around. tim and dustin were there. awe<3 i havent seen them in forever. and i met some kids named bean and jack. and they were really cool. they kept me laughing like the whole time. and then hmm..manda chelsea becca ryan and ty were there. and so was cassidy shannon and holly. didnt talk to them much. but my tum tum kid was there =]!!! i wuv himmmm. and steven was there tooooo. yeah. they were all giving me hugs. lol. hugs=looooove. anywho. mark came and picked me and juli up..dropped me off at home...and i think i stayed up till like 1 or so..talking online and such. saterday..uhm..i dont know. julis party when saterday. and it was so much fun. i dont wanna say what happend. cuz i dont want to. =] justin came..and i love him =] cassidy did me,myesha,justins and laurens make-up. and it was fun. i'll have pictures at the bottom. yeah. it was alot of fun. everyone fell asleep early..well..at like 4. and me,lauren,manda,and tasha fell asleep as 6AM ..fuckkkk. i woke up at 9:30 cuz i wanted to say by to justin =[ blahh. him and his girl were fighting. i hope they get everything worked out. cuz he makes him happppppyyyyyyyyy. yeah.. thennn at like 11:30..me juli megan myesha and zannie walked back to the train tracks..and there was an axe and i tried cutting a tree down. and it was scary. and thennnnn we walked back..and everyone started leaving. well..lauren did. lol.and then we were all in julis room blowing blower things..and it was super funni. zannies dad picked us up..and dropped me off at my house. and i came home and chilled. =] uhm. had easter dinner. talked to my baby =]]]]] <3333 i love him soooo much and i see him all day toamrrow. ughghgh i'm excited. but anyways..haha...i was online till..like 1. or so. idk. then today..i woke up at 11:30 and went shopping with my mom chelsea and amy at 12..and we went to lunch. and yummy. we got home around..3:30. i got pants a few shirts and a track jacket =] and then i came home and called my lover. durr. thenn...uhmm..cleaned my room..and went to the park with juli colleen and zannie..and we were walking thru the field..and i was like if i fall will you laugh? and then like 2 seconds later i fucking slipped and fell in a biggg ass puddle. so i was wet. and then i was like..fuck it. and i went sliding thru the field..and i was soaked. front and back from head to toe..and i was like waddling home .lol..came home and took a hot hot shower. i think i got frostbite on my legs though..becuase there cold stilll and all red. and i tool my shower like 45 minutes ago. EEEEEK! yeah..but i'm talking to brian =] and listening to music. going to clean my room soon. cuz i have to get up way way early..cuz aj's coming over at 8!! =]]]] omgosh. i'm excited x34535334343. maybe i'll sleep till he gets here. i love it when he wakes me up..cuz he walks in, lays next to me and tickles me softly..and i wame up and smelll his yummy cologne. and we kiss. and then i get up shower brush my teeth ad run out and kiss him more..then we hang out and i just love it ..i love him..shittt. i;'m in love with himmmmmm. post later bitches

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Wed, 23 Mar 2005 21:17:47 GMT

awright awright. so im taking back xanga !!. im sorry i abandoned you so. i am dearly sorry.

Well i have come to the conclusion that i really want to be either home schooled or go to a private school. My parents are checking up on the Navy acadamy in ny for me. im hoping i get out of public school. i can't stand it anymore. the kids are all immature drama loving assholes. and i can only really count on one person. i go to learn and everyone has to fuck around in class, which drags on the day and extends the lesson so really we learn nothing everyday.. Everyone is a follower there, and i basically only see myself pulling myself away from the " in crowd" and doing what is " cool". i can't take public school. and i can't take being a kid. i want nothing more then to grow up and live my life.. it's just taking longer then i expected.

so many things have happened in the past few weeks. and life has been soo hecktec. and i have been taking my medication lately. ha NONE OF YOU KNEW THAT, NOW DID YOU !... but ive calmed down from all of this. i really miss vinny, he passed away just last week. that was hard. im doing good with not letting my emotions take control of me, well except for when i go to lay my head down and all i can think about is our past time. im not sure how long this pain will last, but i do know is i love him and i will never forget a single moment we shared ...

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i love my baby. everything is perfect, and feels so right. i will marry him when i grow up. and we are going to be together forever. i can't imagine looking into anyone elses eyes, or being wrapped up in anyone elses arms but his. --- his smile is the most genuine thing.. i've ever seen. i was so lost, but now i believe <3

my father wrote me an e-mail and this is exactly what is said :

Hey sweetie,

I was thinking about you today and just how mature and capable a woman you are becoming. I want you to know how proud of you I am, every day it seems you are growing right in front of my eyes in leaps and bounds. As I watch you I can not help but think to myself that you will be alright, I know you will be just fine and I feel in my heart you will be able to take care of your self no matter what life deals you. I whish I could give you and your mother more, as I go to sleep at night I always pray that you will get all you want form life and will be happy. I know I have said it before but no matter what you wish to do in life I just want you to be happy. Do not worry about the small things in life, the minor problems that some people obsess upon will always be with you if not one then an other. We have talked about allot of things form time to time, who is dating who, and who is cheating on who, who is talking behind who's back. I can tell that this petty adolescence is starting to bore you and that you are moving on to the tougher problems in life, you are starting to think about your future and a career. I just want you to know, we both love you and will always be behind you no matter what you choose to do. In a few years you will be starting college,soon you will be independent. I am so excited to watch you reach these milestones in your life, to see you progress and achieve accomplishment upon accomplishment. Every day you make me proud, I could not have whished for a better daughter. I love you and always will.

Dad...

:]. things between him and i have also changed, and become better then they used to. I sat him down awhile ago and we had a really big chat and all. im so happy the way things are turning out, even though the past was hard. odd. and uncalled for. everything is looking up... and hopefully things will stay this way.

well later gater <33

okay..now lets seee...i updated last friday..yeah. went to mbp..and it was effing stupid..waste of my friday night. but uhm..saterday..woke up at 7..had to drive to st mary's city for the crab knockers soccer tournament..it was allright .first game we lost.and second game we lost because stupid person scored on ourself. so it was stupid...i got to see aj =] i was so happpyyy..i got home around 6..or somethin..and i got online and then went to sleep. there was tournaments sunday too..but i didnt go bcuz i had a game with the futsol team..and yeah. and thenn...yeah.sunday was boring. yesh. monday..was gay. tuesday was julis birthday=] and then today i'm sick. and didnt go to school. yeah..i cant wait till this weekend!!! i get off restricion tomarrow! and friday i get to hang out with brian<333 juli and myesha! and then me and myesha are staying at julis..then saterday is julis party..and then we;re staying saterday till sunday. wooot woottttt. i might be going ice skating tonight..buti'm not sure =]

ugh i fucking love the rain. i love andrew. juli is my best friend, i need to get laid. and that is that <3

car accident friday__

Fri, 18 Mar 2005 00:27:57 GMT

im so excited. my brain was so amamzing today. i love it. i felt smart all day. i think it was the outfit + my glasses + my best friend matt :] = me really smart. i was so smart, and shake shake soda kid said i was smarter then matt, and matt is smart. <333

so first lets go through my thoughts of the day.. deja vu. now it's funny because it is really like you are living in the past, present and future all at the same time and everything happens in just a split second, and when you have deja vu, you have already seen it because you are living breathing and dieing all at the same time. Like thoes ppl who can predict the future must have brains that are just farther advanced then most people, because they can see it all happening. it is like they are above us, and know all of our secrets. Lately i have been having this one dream. that i have had many times before, and i know i have. because the second time i had it i recorded it in my dream book. that is where i write all of my dreams down, because sometimes my dreams are just amamzing and blow me away. but anyways. i always have this dream that my little brother and i are running away from his father, and his father is chasing us with a shot gun. im not sure why but he is, and we run through these barns, and fields.. and then i tripp and get bit by a snake, so my brother carries me. and along the way his father catches up and goes to shoot, and i drop my legs down from his arms and protect my brother, and i am the one who gets shot.. and i just hear my brother crying and i wake up. it scares me alot because it reminds me of alot of my brother and my past. many things happened with us 3, and it just scares me. i know it must mean something, or i wouldn;t have it over and over again. and i really miss my brother dearly. i havent seen him since my birthday, which has been almost 3 months now. :[ ...:: sighs ::

it's so scary though because i mean life is so precious AND short. ok so the first 12 years of your life your parents mainly make your decisions. not you. and then you hit teenage years and you have 7 of thoes years. not alot at all. you need to make the right choices. i was thinking about it, and my life. and i have realized life is short, i always new it was but now it just seems shorter and i don't think anyone should waste it doing drugs, or doing things to contract aids. life is too delicate and amamzing. The average life span of a person is to 80 years old. any age after that is just simply a gift... now thoes 7 years that you have determine the next 73 years of your life. how do you want to spend the rest of your life?. if you think about it life is just simply amamzing, to even think that something so powerful can become of something we may never know. ( universe). it is very scary to think of existance and how big and HUGE the universe is. there are more planets then stars in the universe you know. i mean can you think about it? seriously. what is really out there? will we ever know the answers? what is the cause to all of this? NOT GOD. so don't start on religious shit. but anyways. im having a hard time explaining how i feel, but it is just incredible to think about it. i mean ok so the humans brain is huge, but we do not use all of it, and phycics obviously use more of their brain than we can if they can predict the future. I really wish i could live for ever simply because i want to see all the changes in the world, humans, and technology. the brain is big, and we use a small portion of it. as the years have came, we have developed more and more of our brain, and formed form unintelligent cavemen, to amazing sophisitcated people. many people before our time were very intelligent, could the past really have been the future? i mean think about it they built this magnificent buildings and statues, for example maccu pichu, or the pyramids of egypt, the aztecs. they were all outstanding cultural people, probably the most smartest we will ever get. so maybe since we are living the past present and future all at the same time then reallly our generation is the past, and what we belive to be the " past " is really the present... and the present is really the future. As the years go on more of the human brain will begin to develope, making not just humans but MAGNIFICENT creatures. it's amamzing to think that something out there can create something so beautiful ...

ok so i have figured out why mars has no life left on it. Go back to your freshman year in highschool, and think about EARTH SCIENCE. now as you learn about rocks, volcanoes, oceans, waves, weathering, erosion.. and such don't you ever think about nature?. Now i have figured out, that since the oceans and waves slowly eat away the shore lines, and buildings and suck, and tectonic plates spread and separate the earth, and leave gaps, making more and more mountains, and the innner earth will one day devower the entire earths surface. well anywho. ok so my theory that nature is going to overpower humane kind. and one day nature is going to just attack with all that it can do ( everything in earth science) and there will be nothing left but mounds of land, or just water, complete water, and a new spiecies will be born. See now mars, must have had life so they say. so obviously nature overpowered all, and now there is nothing left... and billions of years.. billions of years of wonderful years have been destroyed because of nature. now going back to the whole present past and future thing, maybe mars was really just a time warp of earth, and everything has migrated over to our planet, and once earth gets wiped out, it will move to another planet, and it just keeps continuing on and on... just like that... and mars was just a life that came before us...

now you may think im just nuts or crazy... but have you ever really thought about anything that serious? ...

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whats beauty without an "iloveyou" ..
nothing but empty eyes

love me wednesday __

Fri, 18 Mar 2005 00:24:32 GMT

today was a pretty good day. i did my hair even better then yesturday ! and wore my glasses. boy i love michelle <33 :] well i seemed to have had a pretty good day. nothing new, although alisha is going around telling people that i am pregnant and have aids, but only stupid ppl are beliving her, most of the ppl im friends with hate her and arn't listening to her. My friend greg& amy told me i should beat her up cus he hates her. but w.e lol. amy said she would help, cus she hates her. well.. i learned nothing new today really, although my history teacher was talking about dikes.. and so teddy goes :

" and the moral of the story is, don't stick your fingers in dykes "

hmm.. i don't have any lunch detentions, so im pretty happy. i had fun in lunch today, and bill is going to grow out his gotee for the rest of the year, so andy and i can play with it lol. We made up a story about it, were gonna make a childrens book. haha <3 fun oh fun. and everyone loves paiges butt. omgmg her but is just amazingg. weeee :]

today on the buss, there were so many ppl :]. john lit my pants onfire, so now i have a hole in them. shucks !. then ty licked my phone, and stole my glasses, and we talked about sex, and ty's hair. haha. andrew called out nigger, and there was alot of colored ppl on the bus, it was so bad. Jay and i talk alot more now. im so happy. cus i mean over the summer with us it was just a mess, but at least we are friends now :] and in may were gonna have a parttyyyy. im so excited. hmm..it is very nice outside today, spring is coming

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lately, i have been getting really jelous. now i mean it's stupid, because im sure nothing bad is going to happen. but the whole situation has been making me jelous. ughh but andrea is making me feel better about it. i just hate being jelous over it, cus it's stupid. i trust him. im just stupid i guess.... well jelous =/ i just miss him so much, i guess that is it. cus i haven't seen him in awhile and im going kinda crazyyyy. i fucking love him

since i am grounded from xbox live, i haven't been able to play halo2 and so my friends are getting upset, like so :

twiztedsk8ter34: i just got off halo and finals pissed because your never on

awee... im loved. :]

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ok so if a guy has butt sex, but never vaginal sex.. is he considered a virgin still? im so curious to know the real answer because some say yes and some say no.. but is there even an answer, is sex just sex? i mean in some ways it is just sex, but yet it's so different all at the same time.. ughgh im so confused.

lonely tuesday__

Wed, 16 Mar 2005 01:08:52 GMT

I decided to update with an actual entry, but its gonna be long, & im sure half of you wont read it but i thought'd id type it anyways, & if you have the time to read it, um i guess please do it.

Deep entry on those four little letters, Love.

Pretty much for everyone, i think love has gone wrong at some point in there lifes. Some people cope well with losing someone that they were "in love" with & some people dont. I'll admit, & im sure everyone probably already knows this, i didnt cope well with losing someone i was "in love" with. I'm okay now, and theres always gonna be those little times in my life where i'm gonna miss it and maybe shed some tears but i've moved on. But i think everyones like that now & again.

Now theres those times where we all think we were "in love" with someone, but after the break up with that someone, we realized we really werent, but we did like them a lot. Also there are those times when that someone really loves you, and you say "i love you" to them but you really dont mean it. I have said "i love you" to someone with out meaning it, & i shouldnt have, that can really hurt a person. I think being hurt & knowing that you've hurt someone are equal in pain. It really makes you feel bad to know you've hurt someone. But it also sucks really bad to be the person hurt. i know some people who throw around "i love you" like its a game or like your obligated to say it to your boyfriend or girlfriend, your not obligated to do anything, its not like its a rule of being someones boyfriend or girlfriend. i think everyone from now on, shouldnt say i love you unless you truly mean it, and that your 99.9% or 100% preferably that you are in love with that person. But also what happens with your in love with someone, & they arent in love with you?

There are those people that are so truly in love its amazing to me. I envy that. As much as I, myself, am scared to fall in love another time, that feeling, i want that feeling of being totally & completely in love, no matter how much i guard myself. I know that i guard myself, but i dont know what else to do. I go into a relationship thinking, i will not fall in love, and if that person tells me they love me, i deny their love. But who am i to deny anyones feelings, i just truly dont want to hurt. i also go into a relationship thinking they're going to break up with me, i hate thinking like that, but i know i do, & i dont know how to stop that way of thinking.

Two movies that remind me so much of guarding themselves from love are "How To Deal" & "Hitch", i really recommend you see them. But the people in the movies, their way of thinking, reminds me some of my way of thinking, thinking every guy/girl is the same and nothings going to change. Even tho not every guy is the same.

For once, i want to be able to let my wall down once, and not be so protective of my heart. But im scared for that one time that i do, its going to be the wrong time, that they are going to hurt me. And i hate being so negative towards "love", but how else do i save myself the heartache. Maybe i think about this to much, maybe im not helping myself at all. I dont even know anymore. All I know is that I AM in love with someone amazing. hes so unexplainable. i just love him.

i believe in love at first sight, i believe in being in love. I just dont want to fall in love. Why do you think they call it falling anyways?

Today, i promise, that i will not say "i love you" to a guy, unless im completely sure that i am in love with them.

[if you took the time to read this or even just a little bit of it, please comment, with thoughts, opinions, or anything, even if i dont know you]

so yes, onto the bigger and better things of my day...it started off allright i suppose. science was quite greatt acually. i was laughing basically the whole time. i was quacking at michael and hitting myself in the face..weird eh? yeah. haha.thats me though =] so yeah.sewing was really stupid. i have no passion to be good or nice or pay any attention at all in that class..i just dont like it. soo i got kicked out cuz me and sammy were talking toooo much. and we werent doing our work. so i left..and when i came back..me and sammy were talking more..so ms. heffer moved my seat. sammy..grrr. he always gets in trouble. but i gotta love em . ..yeahh..then me and sammmmmyyyy were walking to math..and he took a pin from sewing..and i told him i'd peirce his lip for him..and he was like allright!! but he told he to be careful not to hit a vain cuz if i did that one side of his face would be all sloopy. hahaha. <33 funni funni..then in math we did some march madness shaz with basketball statistics. riiiight. thenn english was allright. justin and zack were crackn me up...then i went to the nurse..then went home..got online. did my homework. blah blah fooosh. and then me and my mom went to the gym. came home..did more homework..took pictures..ate some spaghettios and now i'm here..blabbing to you..and talking to my babester ..

<333

and i can't wait for this snow to go the fuck away, i want summer to come. i want to go down to the shore soo fuckingg badd.. <33 ughh polish ices, bumper cars and amamzing rides.. cotten candy, board walk, spending all my money on games... and playing in the ocean. GOD IT IS WHAT I LIVE FOR

Mon, 14 Mar 2005 23:52:13 GMT

i got my guitar from taste of chaos<33 its hawt to the fucking max!

pictures laterrrrr

sleepless monday_

Mon, 14 Mar 2005 22:49:32 GMT

well today my day started out really gay. i found out that im failing two classes, which completely made me upset and really pissed. plus i have my period so i wasn't feeling good at all today. public speaking was fun with alysson, although alisha talked about me all period to tom and he was like " lexxi, she is obsessed with you ". i just laughed. i mean why WHY does she bother with me, why can't she leave me alone. why does she obsessed over me. gay attention whore. me and alysson were having a ball making jokes all period, and talking about HOW COOL MYSPACE IS.
then lunch came.. boy oh boy. so ok bill wanted to pour the vita pop on alisha, so he had andrea do it. and she did it, i wasn't there but i saw the reaction. then alisha tried to pour it onto andrea, but she thought other wise lol. so now alisha says it was all me, my fault my plan. um ok? so she is going to " get back at me " boy im so scared, i think i need a body guard. alisha hates me so she is just trying to find excuses to bother with me. if she hates me so much, why doesn't she just stay out of my life. ok so i laughed because she got stuff poured on her, but it's not like i had anything to do with it. god grow up.so then after class me and andrea are walking to the busses and alisha tries to shut the door on us. haha. funny <3
Some people make me so angry. You know. if you dontl ike someone. keep it to your damn self. i dont understand why the world lives to bring people down. why cant everyone (so cliche) just get along? You know. I dont care who hates who. Who stole whos baby's daddy. You know. just keep your mouth shut. Brigning people down a notch shouldnt be your fucking goal in life.---aint that the truth.

hmm.. well im nothing but a " ugly and sad girl who noone likes " according to alisha. i guess im going to go GET DRUNK AND ALMOST DIE, AND GO BRAG ABOUT IT TO EVERYONE. talkto you later kids <33

I LOVE YOU ANDREA !! :D !!

blah blah foosh

Sun, 13 Mar 2005 23:21:28 GMT

everything sucks ass.. <||3

well..lets see...i woke up around..11? or something this morning..and aj called. idk what his problem is but i think hes PMSing. and i hate it. hes mean to me. =[ anyways..we got off the phone..cuz he was being bitchy..soo..i didnt wanna talk to him. and thenn i layed in bed for awhile and watched TV. then i got up and got in the shower..yeah yeah. got dressedddd blow dryed/straightened my hair. i looked all pretty cuz i thought aj was coming. =] and then..he calls and says he doesnt wanna get ready..so therefore..i cant see him ..sooo i started crying..bcuz its been 4 weeks? and we had an opportunity to hang out..and he didnt wanna. thats some shit. i'm so pissed off about that..i ughghghgh ..so yeah. my make-up was all terrible..so i re-did it..and it looked like poo cuz yeah. but yepp. i wore my grumpy bear pj pants to the game..cuz i didnt feel like wearing shorts. sooo me and my mom got there around 2..and only a few ppl from our team was there..and yeah. me and jamie wanted to go downstairs and start practicing..but these really crucial emo boys were blocking the stairs..but we went down anyways =] and before we went down..the boys did and the guy said they couldnt practice..but when we went down there they said we could. so the guys were like whattt? haha. so we were practicing and shooting blah blah foosh. and then the rest of the team showed up. blah blah. we started..and our team sucks. and of course we lose. i dont understand how we were like 3rd place like last month..and now we;re in 9th. ..::shakes head:: next weeks our last game..yepp yepp..me and my mom went to arbys..and then jo anne fabrics..i got some stuff for a blanket =] and then we went tooo nicks..and then walmart..and then home. yepp.. i still have work to do..blah blah foosh x2

Sun, 13 Mar 2005 02:43:02 GMT

i love how you all always comment.

i'm oh so loved

jay kay, jay kay. you know you all hate me =]

time to cuddle_saterday

Sat, 12 Mar 2005 22:49:15 GMT

wow. i was most definitly in a terrible mood last night. ..i had written a long as entry..and it disapeard. so i was fucking livid. GRRRR!!well..idk. nothing much has been going on...i talked to aj before i went to bed last night..and jarret was over...and i had been crying..and aj could tell..and i told him i didnt wanna talk about it cuz he had someone over and everything..and he said he thought he knew why i was crying.and i'm sure he does. its the reason i've been crying sence 2 weeks ago? yeah. so we got off..and i got back online..until 11? or so. and then i layed down..and watched tv..and fell asleep at 12 or somthing. uhh..i woke up at 9:55..cuz my mom asked me if i wanted to go grocery shopping..and i said no. and then i layed there and ran outside to make sure she didnt leave..cuz i decided i wanted to go. =] so yeah..i got in the shower and everything..and we left. and we were there untilll ....1:30. holy cow...came home..put the gorceries away..and then got online..watched tv...slept. ate. did some work. called aj. its our 15th month =] yumm. now i'm sitting here..i think megan might come over tonight..i'm not sure though..

seriously...zannie and colleen and all of your fucking friends..need to grow the fuck up. you all really piss me off. i'm tired of all of this shit..your all so shady. actn like we're all cool..and then talkn shit..right right. grow up.

i love my andrew john calvert<33333

Sat, 12 Mar 2005 01:41:15 GMT

fuck you. fuck you. fuck you.

i dont need you or your fucking games.

fuck you.

AND FUCK YOU!@@#$#%$^$^%$^^#%$@!!!!!!!!!

i need you though. i want you and i love you..please baby come back to me. =[

please?

=]

Fri, 11 Mar 2005 00:43:51 GMT

There's been an accident, and my memory's been wiped. I have no recollection of who I am. Tell me about myself. What do you know about me? What kind of person am I? What are my likes and dislikes? How did we meet and how long have we known each other? Is there one thing in particular that stands out about me? Tell me who I am.

Post this in your own LJ to see what people say about you

Thu, 10 Mar 2005 01:51:24 GMT

being grounded isnt as bad as i exspected. but let see. tuesday we had msa testing shaz for math..and it was easy..i fell asleep ..i always fall asleep. lol..yeahh..then we stayed in math for a half hour..went to lunch..then went back to math..then to english..and then gym. gym was gay. we had 45 minutes and we didnt even do anything..i layed on the floor most of the time..talking to colleen who was above me. lol..yeahh..then i came home..and dont remember doing much. talked to my lover. durr. me and wake are talking again =] he makes me laugh. lol..i might go seeee him this spring break..but i'm not sure.yeah. then todayyy..we had msa again..and a half day...so we didnt even go to homeroom..so right when we got to school we went to out testing rooms..and then we tested..haha..and people brought it snacks and stuff for us..and candy..so the teacher was passin out candy while we were testing..and out pod was finished first..so yeah yeah. we got to eat chiips and juice stuff. and then we went to sewing..and didnt do anything..me and sammy talked =] i love him SOMETIMES! ..haha. yeahh..then we went back to math.. and we had pizza and cookies and juice and rice crispie treats.. =]!!! but i only had rice crispie treat and a peice of pizza..yeah..and then my mom came and got me cuz i had to go to the kidney docter..she put me on this medicine for a year. EEEK! so yeah.. we got there at 1..and are now getting home at 8:00..yeah. we were there a very long time.and now i'm uploading pictures. so booyow. check out the site. biotch

http://community.webshots.com/user/summerheartsx3

Tue, 08 Mar 2005 01:22:54 GMT

okay..well last night..i wouldnt get off the computer..and it was like..10:30..or something..so my mom was bitching..and i told her to be quiet. so she came and unplugged my computer. and i wasnt in a very good mood anyways..and so i was all pissed..and she was like go to bed now. i was like i'm not tired =] and she was like dont you plug that computer back in and so i did and i was like you act like you;d do something. and she was like yelling at me. ohh..how scary...STUPID! gosh. but yeah..she really pissed me off. so i went to bed at like 12..cuz i was pissed..and upset and ever fucking thing..so yeah..i got up kinda early this morning..and got in the shower and such..then my mom took me to school. uhmm..we had MAP today..=] me and danea were laughing the hole time..yeah..we got some 100 grand bars? or something and a tootsie pop. thenn we went to science. the periods were shortened today..so yeah. we didnt do much..i was falling asleep =[ THEN! the principle called me to the stage..and a whole rack of ppl...and it was cuz we're failing. soo..yeahh..we have an opportunity to go to thomas stone this friday and idk. hard to explain .idk if i wanna go =\eeep. but yeah..then i went to sewing..and it was boring...and she yelled at me when i first walked it !! gosshh..i hate that teacher. yeah..it was boring..talked to sammy and justin the hole time. then went to to the nurse..cuz i've been in a not wanting to go to math kind of mood..so i went to the nurse for an hour. idk..i've been like blahh..hard to explain. everything is messed up =[ but boopers. then i went to english..and started readind a play..and did the warm up..and make up work..cuz i have a 25% in that class which depresses me more than anything. then i went back to math for msa shit. and it was boring..i was just sitting there..looking at the ceileing..thinking about everythinggg....=[ then the bell rang..and i just walkd out to my moms car..and we left. it was such a pretty day ..71* =] so i came home..ate some peanuts..and then talked to annie..and then me annie and juli went on a walk..then we went to the park..took pictures *on the site at the bottom*..Jesse was there..lol..and he was playing tag with his little neice..lol.very cute. we were just talking..blah. i couldnt get himmm off my mind..and it was driving me crazyyyyyyy. grr. but yeeah..we saw zannie sammy and colleen walk by..and they didnt even say anything..how rude. but i could seriously care less. thenn we started walking annie home..and there was a dog and i hate when i see dogs that are like loose..so i turned and walked the other way..and annie walkes up to it..and it like attacks her..so shes running from it..lmfao...it was so funni. me and juli kept walking..crakn up. then we walked annie half way..and me and juli were allmost home..and i forgot annie had my cell phone. GRRR!! so i wqas gonna walk back..which was gonna take forever sence she lives on the other side of the neighboorhood. so we just walked to my house..and the first thing my mom says when i walk in the driveway is "dad saw ur interum and said your grounded"..and i've never been grounded before..so i was like yeah right. haha..so me and juli went in my room..and i got the box out of me and aj's memories and stuff..and i was showing and explainging everything to her..and i was reading a poem i wrote him..and i got teary eyed..trying hard not to cry..i so realized that nothing this amazing could ever come upon me..and i'm so stupid to think that something could be better than this. we are going thru it bad right now..and it sucks..but i'm hoping we'll be okay. bcuz i love this boy more than life itself..and i'd be lost without him . <33 i love you babyyyyy =] so yeah..i showed her everything..and we listend to the used..and yeah. my mom drove us to annies to get the phone..and then dropped juli off...and came home..ate..and then had to talk to my dad.. and because i have a 25% in english..i'm grounded for 2 weeks..cant go anywhere..have to be offline and off the phone by 9:00, and can only be online 2 hours A DAY! including weekends not seeing andrew, or kyle, or juli, or aj, or nick ,or austin..or anyone..is going to drive me insane. i havent seen aj for 2 weeks as it is..plus 2 more. JESUS! =[ this is terible. weekends i am going to be so lonely. so if your reading this, and you wanna call me on the weekend to keep my company..im me and i'll give you my number,if you dont already have it =] yeah..but i started crying..cuz i'm in a emo mood lately..so yeah..just thinking about everything i've been thinking about..plus this..and the stress of getting my grades up in 2 weeks..god. i'm so fucking UGHHGHGHG!!!!! i'm leaving. i cant take this shit. =[

post tomarrow...

<33 emo bitch.

Mon, 07 Mar 2005 02:45:10 GMT

i had a really good time on friday at mbp. kyle was flirting with me ..lol. i love him. =] i love andrew too. there both veryyyy nice looking. haha. uhmm..kevins band wasnt all too great. ..i gave kyle a piggy back ride..he was "riding" me. lol...he was like all in my face..talking to me..i thought he was going to kiss me. i would have melted ..he did kiss my head though... funayyy <33...yeah..kyle hung around me more than andrew did. we kept tickling eachother. and i stole his hat =]. i wish we were single. doot doot. we gave andrew kyle joe nick and austin a ride home..there wasnt enuf room so kyle had to sit on my lap..and he was being goofy. i just wanted to hug him and kiss him and never let go!! =]  we were singing..lol. duh. we always sing when we;re together. andrew is such a sweet heart =] i cant ever get enuf of him. hes so fun to be around and to goof around with. <33 love them bunchies. uhh..me and juli came home..and we hung out..and cooked a hole rack of food..got online..then went up and layed in MY!! bed and ate our food. then juli fell asleep..and i was not tired att allll..so i got back online until like..2:30..i forgot who i was talkn to though. but yeah..then i went to bed =] uhm..i originally had practice at 1 on saterday..so i woke up at 12..and my mom said it was canceld..once again. so i went back to sleep..and woke up cuz juli was coughing in my ear. lol..we got up..got ready and everything..and then juli left..and i just hung around doing nothing. i felt like seeing andrew..cuz you know how i cant get enuf of him. but him and kyle were skating.so i got in the shower..and yeah..sat online all day..then i started listening to the used' old cd..and i started crying..for reasons i shall not tell you. =] i'm kind of over it now..i just wish things were different. yepp yepp. but i'm happy for what we have with eachother now =] uhmm yeah..i went to bed like at 2..or something..i was looking thru baby pictures to show kyle..which i forgot to bring to him today. DAMIT! but yeah..i was up looking for pictures, and talking to ppl online.friday at mbp..i kinda thought kyle liked me..but now that i think about it..i dont think he does. that sucks. but yeah..i woke up at 7:30 this morning for aj's game...yeah..so me and my went to that...and i saw him for about 10 minutes..its been 3 weeks sence we've spent time together. idk..=\ so yeah..he told me we couldnt hang out cuz he had an essay to write..soo..i came home..and talked to kyle and andrew.why? bcuz i love them dearly. and i met up with kyle and andrew at joes..but joe wasnt home..so we hung outside..for like..10 minutes? talking and bouncing my ball and such. then we went inside..and they were tuning there guitars..and kyles string did something..lol so he had to get a new one..and it took him a long time to fix it..but then they started playing..and he kept looking at me..like STARING! =] <333 he was very cute. he sang a song about me. funnayyyy. i was sitting on the couch..and then andrew like comes and jumps on me..kinda. cuz i was laughing at something on kyles phone..and he wanted to see..but i closed it =] so he started tickling me..and it was fun =] i was like rolling around. lol he kept tickling me at random times..me and kyle talked about the guitar...and yeah. gosh. i wanted to like..idk. lol..NEVROMIND! he wasnt around much. and he thought be and andrew were boning..bcuz he was tickling me and i was laughing. kyle comes in and askes me how lesbians have sex. lmao. that was great. we watched a lezbo porno =] yeah..but we went on a "walk" and i fell in the creek and my show got caught in the mud..and fell off..so i was gonna leave it there..but andrew got it for me..my leg foot and shoe were so muddy. lol..they were all laughing at me. =] andrew messed up my hair.and told me i was going bald..and kept calling me chubby. and kept telling me that he hated me. BUT! its okay. bcuz i know he loves me =] yeah..so him and kyle kept calling me bfm. *bald fat and muddy* but i thought it meant big fat monkey. haha. yeah..we went in patricks room..and yeah uh huh .then we went downnn stairs...and kyle was eating ice cream like a mad man. and he had a boner. and it was hott. he said it was hard not to be fucking me or something. lol. i wanted to kiss him a lot. lmao. yeah. but not now. we're not single. so yeah..my mom came at likeee 6:30..and i said my gooodbyeesss =[ and yeah. my mom smelt something. and i said kyle burnt the macaroni and cheese. lol..idk. stupid excuse. but she fell for it. so yeah we drove home..and i got online..and washed my foot . lol. and now i'm calling andrew and texting kyle. whoop whoop. i'm listening to music and uploading pix. so, yeah. update later-izzle biotches

your one and only whore. face. x2

CAR ACCIDENT FRIDAY

Fri, 04 Mar 2005 22:41:10 GMT

today is friday. durr. uhhhhh school was gay. haha. suprise?? nope. history was funn..me and riley were laughing like the whole period. for no reason. uhh gym was fun too..i didnt dress..and neither did leenO or sammy. ..there class was upstairs..and mine was down..but i snuck upstairs so i could hang out with them =] and ms .madden(their teacher) was all yelln t me..but i didnt go anywhere..lol i guess she gave me a referall..she said i could? or some shit. confusing. yeah..colleens mom came and got her...and sammy just walked out the side doors and left with them. haha. funni. uhmm..math was stupid. i left at 12 cuz i had an ortho appintmet. i got lime green =] and he said that i get my braces off in 2 months <33 and it hasnt even been a year. haha. yummy. but yeah..i didnt go back to schoool..cuz my mom said i didnt have to..so we went to mcdonalds =]<333333 and then we went to 7-11..and then we came home. i fell asleep. uh huh .then everyone left..so i was allll aloneeeee..so i decided to dye my hair.to try and fix the fuck up my mom made the first time..so i dyed it..and it was like orange..but then aftter i washed it and blow dryed it and everything.its a pretty redish looking color. kinda different. my mom walked in and was like hello there ms carrot juice. lol..i was like grr. but yeah..at 6 i'm going to get ready for mbp..and then at 6:30 i suppose we're leaving. my BESTFRIEND juli is staying the night =]. i get to see brett-izzle, andew and kyle tonight. oh and brian. haha/ yummy.

doopy doopers.<33

Fri, 04 Mar 2005 01:57:56 GMT

hmm..today was okay but also shitty.weird eh? we had testing again today..and it was so easy. i sat with sarah and we were doodling and it was funni =] i was so cold..i'm always cold in that class =[ i fell asleep too. testing is very boringgg. okay uhmm after testing..we went to 2nd ..but i didnt go..i just hung around..no one said anything to me. lol..and then we went to 3rd...and me and pete kept getting in trouble for talking..he was all askin me stuff about askn this girl out and he has a secret he wanted to tell me..but then he was like NEVER MIND! buttt...i think he likes me and thats what his secret was..yeah..at lunch..i had the worst cramps ever..i cried..and made myself throw up the food i ate. i think i got poisoned. so i threw up..and after that i got a huge headache..but i went to the nurse and took some medicine . made me feel better. then we went to 4th..and we did this coloring thing..it was weird. i think kostas likes me..jeesh! but then we went to 1st and it was so funni. me and sarah were so hyper we were laughing so loud and be super stupid. and we had a substitue so it didnt matter much...tiara walked over to us and farted. omg..it stank so bad..i couldnt breathe. so i took samanthas lotion and was like squirting it EVERYWHERE! and i was making these funni noises. and danea almost peed herself =] then my tummy started hurting again..and thenn we went back to homeroom to get interums..i gott a c in science, a b in home eh, a d in math and a 25% in literacy holy cow. and i got a d in social studies and a c in gym. whoop whoop..so i came home...and i threw up again..went to lay down..and then i started gagging..so i went in the bathroom..and was leaning over the toilet for an hour..and i passed out..i woke up...and i felt so fucking bad..so i went in and layed down..started feeling better..my baby called =] but i told him i wasnt feeling good..so we got off..and i went to sleep..and then chris comes in and i have to babysit =[ so i was like okay. so i layed there tried to go back to sleep..and my nephews are screaming and crying.so i got up..and was all dizzy and i like couldnt walk..so i stood there..and then i felt better. not really..but i wasnt dizzy anymore....so i went down there..and i brought gabriel up to my room so he could lay down and watch cartoons with me..and i tried falling asleep but he wouldnt stop talking..so i had to throw up again..so i ran to the bathroom.threw up..left gabriel in my room..and decided to get into the bath =] and whoaaaaa i felt so much better...so i got out.got my pjs on..and went out for dinner..i had cereal and an appple =] hehe. then i got on the computer..then me and juli went to wal*mart..yeah..i got a whole rack of shit =] now i'm here.about to do a survey <333

+ About Yourself +
Name :: lexxi
Age :: 13
Date of birth :: june 24
Gender :: girl
time: 8.37pm

Where are you from? :: camp springs maryland
Nicknames :: hoe,whore,lexxi loo_x3,dr.love,lexxi sexxi..anything you wanna call me
Middle name(s) :: nicole
Do you have any pets? :: 3 dogs
What makes you happiest? :: kyle, andrew,juli,aj..friends in general,sometimes family,and music
What makes you the saddest? :: sometimes music,being hated by the people i love, jealousy..
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+ Have You Ever +
Said ‘I Love You’ and not meant it? :: mmm.. i dont know.
Taken drugs? :: ..no.
Been cautioned/arrested? :: almost.
Been to a concert? :: hell yeh
Cried during a movie? :: yes
Been on stage? :: acting? not for acting but i used to do ballet.
Witnessed a crime? :: yeh i've seen someone die.
Swore at your parents? :: yeah
Been abroad? :: yeh
Failed a grade? :: yepp

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+ Last Thing You Did +
Last thing you ate :: rice crispie treat =]
Last drink you drank :: water
Last magazine you read :: eurosport
Last person you spoke to :: my sister
Last person you emailed :: brittnay
Last thing you bought :: chapstick,cd holders,eye shadow,lip balm,eyeliner and mascara<3
Last shop you went in :: wal*mart? lmao..idk
Last song you listened to :: derby lane-guess what girls
Last website you went on :: my webshots
Last time you said anything :: maybe 15 minutes ago?

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+ Celebrities +
Which celebrity would you most like to meet? :: umm.. angelina jolie
Who was your first celeb crush? :: i dont know..
Who is you current celeb crush? :: adam brody
Which celebs have your parents got crushes on? :: uhmm?
Have you ever met a famous person? :: yepp.
Have you ever seen a band in concert? :: of course

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+ Favourites +
Favourite colour :: black, pink, purple, blue, orange and GREEN!
Favourite band :: the used (and 2 many 2 mention)
Favourite solo singer :: john mayer
Favourite film :: idk..
Favourite song ::derbylane songs. alll of them =]
Favourite album :: in love and death, the used
Favourite TV programme :: law and order n the glasshouse
Favourite F.R.I.E.N.D.S character :: joey..duhhh
Favourite day of the week :: wednesday or friday night
Favourite day of the year :: christmas
Favourite type of music :: rock/alternative, emo
Favourite TV channel :: 55, 56.54. on demand. oh, abc for glasshouse
Favourite boys name :: kyle,landen,brian and wake.
Favourite girls name :: ashlee nicole,michelle silence and ices marie.

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+ Body Matters +
Do you like your body? :: at times
What would you change about your body if you had the chance? :: too much to mention, but i dunno if i would, cause changing your body changes your ego. i dunno if i want a phat ego :P

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+ Head, Shoulders, Knees and Toes +
Do you like the shape of your head? yeh?
Do you like your eyes? yes
What colour are your eyes? brown
What would you change about your face? my nose
Have you got broad shoulders? :: i dont know?
Do you like your shoulders? :: mmm..
Have you got knobbly knees? :: no
Are they fat/chubby/skinny? :: im not fat, but not skinny
Do like your feet? :: no feet are grosse
Describe your feet? :: size 7.5

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+ Tattoos and Piercings +
Have you got any tattoos or piercings? :: yes
How many do you have? :: 4
What are they of? :: ears. i want my eyebrow && nose though
Do you think lip, belly, eyebrow and nose piercings look good? :: lip, eyebrown and nose on all people, belly on only some
What do you think of sleeves (tattoos all on the arm)? :: hot on rockers
Would you ever consider getting a tattoo – if you don’t already have one? :: yeh
If yes, what would you have? :: something that meant something to me

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+ Emotions +
Do you show your emotions much? :: at times
What scares you most in life? :: dieing and not telling my friends etc how much i love em
What angers you most in life? :: selfish, arrogant, too opinionated, upthemselves, rude, bitchy people. politicians. they shit me too.
What upsets you most in life? :: people who wallow in their depression
What makes you happy in life? :: friends && music
What helps cheer you up? :: *hugs* and laughing. chocolate for sure
Who is usually there for you when you feel down? :: juli and andrew =]
Are you more optimistic then pessimistic? :: optimistic
Is the glass half full or half empty? :: half full
How short is your temper? :: medium

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+ Choose One +
Tom Delonge/Mark Hoppus :: tom delonge.
Blink-182/Busted :: Blink 182
Busted/McFly :: neither
Ashton Kutcher/Topher Grace :: ashton?
Watching movies at home/Watching movies at the cinemas :: at home just cause u can bumm out with friends and talk and laugh and no-ones gonna tell you to shut up
Crisps/Chips :: Chips cause im not british
McDonalds/KFC :: mcdonalds =]
Rock music/Pop music :: rock
Punk/RnB :: punk
Black/White :: black && white
Hot/Cold :: not too hot and not tooo cold
Red/Blue :: blue
Happy/Sad :: happy
Cameron Diaz/Drew Barrymore :: drew barrymore
Avril Lavigne/Fefe Dobson :: fefe
Talking over the phone/Talking face to face :: face to face
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+ Random Questions +
If you could have one wish in the world, what would it be? :: i'd rather not sayyy
If you had the chance to meet 3 people, dead or alive, which 3 would you choose? ::
1) senses fail
2) ashlee simspson
3) && the used
Who would play you in a film about your life? :: uhm...i dont know..
What’s the first word you lay your eyes on after you’ve finished reading this sentence? :: that
Do you have posters on your wall? :: not yet. i have pictures on my mirrors though =]

Thu, 03 Mar 2005 02:31:46 GMT

all of a sudden..i'm oh so jealous of you..and i dont know you at all but i know him and i want him for myself. it makes me wanna cry..and i hate it =[

i wish i could rip your heart out and replace it with mine so he'll love me like he loves you. that would be a dream come true.

what a beautiful catastrophe

Thu, 03 Mar 2005 01:28:02 GMT

::What is your full name: Alexis Nicole Clinch
::Nicknames: lexxi,lexxi loo_x3,dr.love,rexxi roo roo,lix,lexxi poo..anything you want to call me.
::Birthdate: june 24
::Where do you live? waldizzle
::What school do you attend? john effing hanson
::Siblings and their ages? michelle-23,mike-21,and brendan-17
::Sex: famaleizzle
::Righty or Lefty: righty
::Hair color: bergendy-ish-izzle . with blonde/brown showing cuz i dont know how to dye hair.
::Eye color: brown
::Height: 5'5"
::Do you wear contacts or glasses? yepp
::Do you have any piercings? 2 in each ear
::Where do you want more if you do? my ears,nose,eyebrow and belly button.
::Do you have a tattoo? no
::Do you wear any rings? sometimes
::Do you have a certain fashion you follow? whatever i like or is comfortable.

>>>Just Lately<<<
::How are you today? tired,excited,cold
::What pants are you wearing right now? jeans
::What shirt are you wearing right now? used/taste of chaos shirt<3
::Where did you just come from? the bathroom...?
::What does your hair look like at the moment? its down..flaring and sexxi. =]
::What song are you listening to right now? daphnelovesderby-hopeless love
::What was the last thing you ate? chicken <333
::How is the weather right now? cold? and wet. and all poopie looking.
::Last person you talked to on the phone: aj <3
::Last Dream you can remember: the one i just told andrew. and YOU cant know about it =]
::Who are you talking to right now? brian,juli and andrew =]
::What time is it? 7:55
::What are the last four digits of your phone number? home:2170 cell:9661
::If you were a crayon, what color would you be? GREEN!!!! or hot pink
::Have you ever almost died? yeah. haha.
::How do you eat an Oreo? with milk? idk..i dont really like them. depends on my mood.
::What makes you happy? MY FRIENDS!!!! specially my close ones. who always talk to me..and make me laugh.=] sometimes my family..and aj<3
::What's the next CD you are going to buy? i burn most my cd's..so probly nothing anytime soon
::What's the best advice ever given to you? follow your heart<3
::Have you ever won any special awards? i dont recall them being special..but yeah..i've won some
::What are your future goals? graduate, be in a band LIKE THE OLD DAYS!!!!! or be a photographer=]
::Do you like to dance? no. i dont. well..only goofing around. you have to get me in the mood to make a fool of myself though. cuz i cant dance =]
::Worst sickness you ever had? well i have diabetes? does that count???? if not..i had really bad strep throat and had to get a shot in my butt! OUCH!
::What's the stupidest thing u've ever done? jumping off the roof naked into a swimming pool
::What's your favorite memory? taste of chaos =] singing in the back on my moms car with andrew and kyle.12-12-03<333
::If you could change one thing about yourself what would it be? i would wanna be skinnier..but i could be fatter. so i'm not complaining.
::Where do you shop the most? a lot of places.
::How many kids do you want to have? 1 or 2
::Son's name? kyle or landen
::Daughter's? ashlee nicole,michelle silence,or ices marie
::Do you do drugs? nope
::Do you drink? yeah
::What kind of shampoo and conditioner do you use? pantiene pro-v or that aussie shaz
::What sport do you hate the most? i dont think i hate any sport..
::What are you most scared of? escalators,being obese,clowns,spiders,being alone,twinkies and spaghetii
::Do you have your own phone line or cell phone? cellphone
::Do you sleep with a stuffed animals? all the time =]snowman or angelina<33
::Who do you tell your dreams too? juli,andrew,and aj
::Who's the loudest friend you have? kt,myesha
::Who's the quietest friend? juli-in public =]

>Misc. Stuff<<<
::Is cheerleading a sport? yes
::Do you have a crush? uh huh
::Who is your crush? .
::Do you believe in Love at first sight? not unless youve talked to this person before like online or the phone and got to know him/her..and met him/her in person for the first time..i guess thats exseptional
::What song do you want played at your wedding? i dont know..
::What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex? hair,smile,sense of style,smell,teeth,body,and ankles.
::Longest crush? sammy,corey and matt
::Do you find yourself attractive? yeahh..i suppose
::Do you find yourself ugly? sometimes
::Do others find you attractive? yepp

>>>Which Is Worse<<<
::Making out with Boy George or Rob Zombie? i dunno? lol
::Having your tonsils or appendix removed? appendix

>>On Guys<<<
::Boxers or briefs: boxers
::Long or short hair: depends on the guy
::Curly or straight: straight. curly. i like both =]
::Tall or short: doesnt matterr
::Six pack or muscular arms? six pack
::who's your hottest friend? andrew and kyle. duh. aj's hotters.<3

>>>This Or That<<<
::Lights on/off?: off
::Do you like snow, sun or rain? sun
::Mickey D's or BK? mickey ds
::Do you like scary or happy movies better? depends on my mood. and who i'm with.
::Backstreet Boys or NSYNC? backstreet boys!
::On the phone or in person? in person
::Paper or plastic? plastic
::Sausage or pepperoni? neither
::Summer or winter? summer
::Hugs or kisses? depends on my mood
::Chocolate or white milk: chocolate
::Root Beer or Dr. Pepper?: Dr. Pepper
::Glass half full or half empty: half empty
::CD or Tape: cd
::Tape or DVD: dvd
::Cats or Dogs: catsss<333
::Mud or Jell-O wrestling: jell-o! i probly wouldnt be wrestling..i'd be eating the shittt<333
::Vanilla or Chocolate: chocolate
::Skiing or Boarding: boarding
::Day or night: night
::Cake or pie: cake
::Silver or gold: silver
::Diamond or pearl: diamond
::Sunset or sunrise: sunset

>>Favorites<<<
::Color: GREEEEEEEN!!!! purple, hot pink.
::Food: chicken, mac&cheese,haggis<33 and mashed potatoes!!<33333333
::Fast Food: checkers. i like their milkshakes =]
::Beverage: sprite
::Ice Cream Flavor: cookies and cream,chocolate,vaniller..idk. i like it all.
::sport: soccer,softball or snowboaring. i like wrestling too<3
::Animal: elephant, or monkey
::Type of music? any
::Radio Station: i dont like the radio that much
::Song: too many
::Band: the used, senses fail, the spill canvas,bedlight for blueeyes,derbylane,daphnelovesderby,cauterize
::Number: 9
:Actor or actress? dunno.
::day of the year? hmm. not so sure? my birthday! =]
::month? june, july,december.
::TV Show: mad tv,full house,cosby show,roseanne,fresh prince of bellair, and those skate shows on demand.
::Store: dunno?
::Scent: pinesol
::Game: what kinds of game?!?!?!

>>>Have You Ever<<<
::Loved someone soo much it makes you cry? well.. i guess..
::Smoked? yeah
::Drank? yepp
::Broken the law? yepperooo
::Stole something? yeah
::Tried to kill yourself? not on purpose
::Made yourself throw up? no.?
::Been in love? uh huh
::Made yourself cry to get out of trouble? yes

Fri, 25 Feb 2005 03:48:05 GMT

its 10:32 and i just got off the phone with aj..i miss him =[ we're leaving for maine in 4 1/2 hours.blah. i still have to pack..take a shower..eat..clean my room..watch tv ..maybe i'll have time for a little sleep?? just maybe..but if i dont..i'll just sleep on the way there..uh huh. i wish i was going out with my bestfriends tomarrow..ugh. this sucks big balls. but on the other hand i'm excited. <3 blah. i dont know what to say..but i'm just gonna go..i cant promise you that i'll get online and update..or be on aim while i'm gone..but i'll have my cellphone..so you can text me. <3

lAter kids

240-412-9661

Lately i've been hoping you can stay with me
And i could hold you close til the end of time...yeah.
Maybe someday we will grab some change and run away
but for now i'll learn to say goodbye

Ohh how could i survive without your love
and the hope you bring.
Ohh even when the world is breaking down, i know i have you, and it's all i need.

200 miles away from home
200 miles beneath this lake is where my heart belongs
But you don't care at all
You wouldn't even smile if I were screaming as the water filled my lungs
You demand to be chased for your love
My desperate heart is far too weak to run for you this long
But you don't care at all
There nothing I can do to draw you close to me
Can you take this silence like a pill so I can breathe again
I've been trying to ignore the best parts of you
But I'm still hoping that I'll be with you somehow
Please be home tonight
I'll die if I don't get a chance to make this just right
I'm sorry but I can't forget about the way I feel
Every time you're here.
What would it take for me to be with you
I swear I'd rip my heart out if you said you'd be impressed
I'd go so far to please you but I bet you wouldn't care at all
Hopeless love please leave me
This broken heart is far to weak to run for you this long
Why don't you care at all?
I'm dying for a place in your heart.
Can you take this silence like a pill so I can breathe again
I've been trying to ignore the best parts of you
But I'm still hoping that I'll be with you somehow
Please be home tonight
I'll die if I don't get a chance to make this just right
I'm sorry but I can't forget about the way I feel
Every time you're here.
Hopeless love, why did you carve your home in me?
This broken heart is too weak to hold your weight
And now I regret the day we met
And help me forget your name.

nina FOOSH!

Fri, 25 Feb 2005 00:32:02 GMT

right. i miss my aj=[ i neeedd a hugggggggg . uh huh.. me and my mom are driving up to maine tonight..we're acually leaving at 3am. uh huh .i hope i'll have fun. i neeeed to enjoy this break from everything. i wanna cuddle =[ idk..i dont feel like posting anymore..